A touch of Sweetness

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Argh!!! what is wrong with me?? i can feel myself being a bitch to everyone and throwing moodswings tantrums everywhere. but! i don't know what is even the cause of all this. i wasn't like this before. i have changed. and it's definitely not the change for the better. for no reason, i would get fustrated at people who come and disturb, annoy, talk, look, ANYTHING at me! why?! why?! why is this happening?! yesterday, i, my sis, my bro, gail and sis's frens. we went out to viviocity. the day started off bad already. when i woke up, i was already annoyed and fustrated. then it sort of got better. from the marketing and grocery shopping and from gail coming over. all the way to the end of lunch. that was where it will downhill for a while. yep, all the way to the end of the day. i tried to cheer myself up by getting engaged in an conversation with the others, so that when there's a joke (almost all the time) i can feel a bit happier. but nope! it didn't last very long. :( so it's been dragged all the way till now. this morning, gail called my hp and ask if she could come over today. i told her i will check and see. then later i msged her saying that i wasn't in a joyous mood, so it's better if she didn't came. but then after that she asked me if i would be home at 2pm, i said yes. why? she said nothing. i was a bit suspicious, so i called her and she said she was jusst asking. i asked her why again, she still said nothing. then at 2pm, she droped by and passed me someone's copy of our holiday assignment to photocopy (because there were some that i misplaced and one that i forgot to take from her). so i did. since she came all this way to help me make sure i did my holiday assingment even though i had settled it already, i still did as what she wanted. but when i return to her, i was grateful, but because i wasn't in a good mood, i just said a simple thanks to her and jonathan (no smile, no nothing) and went back up. so you see what i mean by me being a bitch to everyone?? i an really thankful and grateful to all the people who care about me and take time off to help when im in trouble, really, thank you. but right now, i think it's best if your just leave me alone for awhile, until i get myself back. or else, i might just piss some of you off without know or meaning it.

-when are you coming back? ;

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Okay. Things today are getting a little messed up. But I have finally progressed from the North Island to the South Island. At least I got one thing right. Okay, right now I need to figure out how long does it take for us to travel from one town to another and calculate roughly the time when we reach the next town and if we spend the night there a not. That… is where the problem lies. Argh! All this is so frustrating. This is suppose to be my school holiday where I am suppose to laze around at home, take old movies and watch or even read a very thick book. But no… that’s not what I’m spending my holiday doing, instead I have to do this irritating itinery for our New Zealand trip where no one in this damn family is even trying to help. Haiis, tell me what to do? Such a big family but everyone is useless. Haiis, all this complaining still doesn’t change anything. I still have to do the damn itinery anyway. Well, I guess it back to the itinery for me. I still have a long way to go. Wish me the best of luck.

-when are you coming back? ;

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Well, here’s to another day of find out activities to do and planning the itinery for the New Zealand trip in December. I have to tell you, it sucks. Doing this kind of planning, working the brain, straining your eyes, looking at the computer screen for hours. It sucks. The only reason that I’m doing such things is because if it’s not us planning the trip than I will be my uncle. And in case you don’t know what it is like to go by my uncle’s planning, then let me tell you. It’s much worse than me having to do this. It’s so cramped together, so stressful. (No offense, Uncle) If your purpose on going on a holiday is to get stress, then good for you, but my kind of holiday is definitely NOT like that. So, here I am, person stuck at home, body stuck in this room, butt stuck on this chair and eyes stuck on this computer screen.

Anyone?

Help?

-when are you coming back? ;

Thursday, October 09, 2008

heyyzzz...
im finally back to the face of the earth. missed me??? hahas.

currrently, now still having exams so everything in my brain is clogging up... haiis!
did you know something??? ytd, i flared for no goddamn reason... i mean... i dun usually do dat, so i was like, what the hell's wrong wif me??? it's like seriously damn wierd.

anyw, maths ppr 1... more than half de class failed!!!! can you believe dat? it's like OMG!!!!
im damn scared i fail la... seriously lor... when i look at the ppr it was like a first glance look very easy bt when u actually do it... my ans looked damn wierd so i cant really confirm lor...

haiis, life this few wks have deen a total drag!it's jus.... no other words to describe... jus drag!!!

ohhs, my show is waiting for me le... hahas...

byyees, i going to watch show le.... HAHAS! xD!

-when are you coming back? ;

Friday, May 09, 2008

heehee...
the exams are finally over. i was thinking, what go during the june holis only, why not the during the mth of may too? the earlier the better, don't you think? i'm sooo excited. it's like a another step closer to my dream? heehee... i simply cannot wait. i cant stop think about it. i seriouslu must have it NOW!!!!! time, faster pass me by. i cant wait any longer. this holi is going to be perfect. i just know it. i can feel it too. heehee...

everybody over there... just wait...

cause i'm COMING!!!!!!heehee

shhh.... those that know what im talking about. keep you lips sealed. heehee... those that don't. keep on guessing. :P

-when are you coming back? ;

Thursday, May 08, 2008

You are really starting to get on everyone's nerves with an attitude like yours. I don't know why it only gets on my nerves now even though I have known you for a couple of years already. Maybe I didn't notice. Maybe I didn't want to notice. Maybe I was just too busy to notice. I don't know but whatever it is. I am noticing it very clearly right now. You always things to be done your way. Have you ever wonder how other people feel when we don't get things done OUR way? If it's base on majority, then it's okay. But the fact is If majority wants, let's say, A but you want B. You will whine, pester and pull a long face when we say no. Do you have any ides how IRRITATING that can be at times? Have you considered how it makes us feel when you do it? Do you have any consideration? You expect people to do things for you. But when you are asked to do the things you want us to do, you don't want to. For example, you want people to accompany you back. We tell you that we don't want. You will beg, whine, perter, irritate and pull a long face so that we accompany you. When we ask you to go with us but it's a longer route, you will say " No. I walking one big round." Then, what about us? When we accompany you, we don't need to walk ONE BIG round? I really don't get it. When you have someone to accompany EVERYWHERE you go, you simply just put us one side. When we volunteered to go with you, you don't seemed very excited, unlike last time when you have NO ONE to go back with. We just needed you to wait for us cause we needed to see someone. But NOOOOO~~ you simply could not wiat. How many times have we all waited for you? You expect to be in the know of EVERYTHING! I sorry.

Somethings are better left unknown.

I really hope things quieten down and this will get solved. But a part of me feels that it's better for us to go our seperate ways. I know we made a lot os promises in the past, right now, i don't evern know our promise to stay together through whatever can get fulfil. If that can't even be fulfil, what more the rest?

From the bottom of my heart, I apologise.

-when are you coming back? ;

Friday, January 18, 2008

Wah lao! he very what leh. so action la. everytime like to act big only. think who you are. hello. reality check! there are alot more people older than you so acting like you know everything. so short-tempered. i dunno how any girls like you. over the smallest thing you also angry. you still dare to call yourself a boy. please la. it like when someone treat you very good then you like the person but when someone corrects you or dun do as what you want the person to do you say you hate that person to the core. please la. what kind of attitude is that. you always complain about what people do wrong, what about you? have you ever look at yourself? you are no better. you also very flirt. instead of talking to your close friends, you go and talk to someone you have only met a few days ago. say what making frens??? PUH! since when you so friendly and out-going. more like you only want their attention. then you also very like to act cute la. make all the baby voice. please la. you be baby ask god to change you into a baby forever la. oh wait. you dont believe in god. how sad! i think i have finally seen your true colours. you are not as innocent as you look. you are not as simple as you look. you are the most scheming person in the whole world that i have ever met. you have moodswings but you dun dare admit them. there's nothing we can do unless you decide to change yourself. you decide for yourself who you want to be. if you want to be a duplicate of somebody, then be it.

After all you are nothing but a lousy copy of somebody. A fake. A scam!

-when are you coming back? ;